Today as I was sitting at a red light when the person in front of me tapped the car in front of them. Next thing, I knew this lady was getting out of the car flailing her arms and shaking her head at the man in the car that bumped her. I could see her mouthing something like "hell nah...etc." Needless to say the lady's car was completely fine, and she was getting her panties in a wad for no reason. Not to mention, she looked like a flailing fool in the middle of the high way.
I began to think what I would have done in this situation.
I would have probably gotten out, and been super concerned about the person rather than the car. I would have felt guilty for this poor soul that happened to be distracted for one reason or another. Even if it did scratch my paint a little bit, I probably would have let it go. Which is how it should be. Unfortunately, when there's bigger wrecks (metaphorically speaking) in my life I do the same thing.
This is fine. I am nice. I will continue to be sugar and spice and everything nice just as I was taught to be.
What isn't fine is that I am always nice. Sometimes I want to get my panties in a wad for something that is important to me. Sometimes I should flail about for something I am passionate about. Sometimes I should stand up and say "hell nah.." to things!
I mean even if that lady looked a little nutzo at least she let that guy know that she was passionate about her car that she probably saved up a long time for.
Not only am I too nice, I always wish for everything to change so I don't have to. I wish the world was a safer and nicer place. I wish that disney was reality " I wish we could all get along like we used to in middle school... I wish I could bake a cake filled with rainbows and smiles and everyone would eat it and be happy..." (Where are all my Mean Girls fans?)
Ok ok...so that's a little bit extreme but I DO wish a lot, and I am tired of it. I am sick of only wishing that I could stand up to the critical bullies, the complainers, the negative nancys, the ungrateful nincompoops, and the selfish idiots.
Elizabeth Gilbert said in Eat, Pray, Love "Stop wearing your wishbone where your backbone ought to be..." and this is exactly my new goal. I will no longer only wish to stand up to those ninny's listed above, but I will do it. I will no longer hold back my thoughts, passions, and opinons for the sake of being nice.
You may think I am crazy...and you are probably right. But you may think I am even more crazy when I say that my inspiration for this goal is Ke$ha. Yes, the sleazy glittery pop star is who I am referring to. Why, you ask? In case you are worrying, I want to let you know I have no intention of becoming a trashy drunken mess. However, I do want to be like Ke$ha in the fact that she does and says what she wants to do and say... exactly when she wants to do and say it.
I aspire to be like her. Once again, not in the having no morals way ( even though, at times it seems like not having any morals would be much easier) but the being tough, passionate, and independent kind of way.
Oh, and wearing glitter all the time wouldn't be horrible either. ;)
